Friday, November 07, 2003
The End of the Legend
6th November 2003
It's the last day we'll sit in the LT waiting for our plays, it's the last time we'll ever do choralnight together as a 2/1 class, it's the last day of everything...i won't be going to the last performance, i'll miss everyone, i'll miss the feeling of throwing make-up over each other, of taking pics on the bench in the LTs, of seeing everyone in their glamourous costumes, giving flowers to each other...the last time we'll ever sing together...everything...
When will I next see you? Friday? Saturday? Sunday? 18th? Next year?
Never will I ever see these in 2/1 again. Mrs Koh...i'll miss her lots. She's such a nice person. She came to watch our performance, she took the front row. She's not even our form teacher. She came. She wore our class tee, maybe for the last time. She came to look for us in LT2. I was crying. I wanted to tell her I'll miss her so much...she came, and she went. I didn't grip the chance. I just watched her go. And I knew I'd missed her already. But how do I say such a thing to her?? How would i explain why i would miss her when she's not even leaving NY? would she get it?
I really wanna thank Mr Tang for all he has done for us, he says it's his job, but he's doing it so much I think he would have been more free if we weren't around, and with his many times showing us how to do stuff he'd to take the TV set as a model...hehe...he's funny, and we appreciate all he has done, really...I'll miss all the rehearsals he'd arranged for us, such as..we were suppose to have rehearsals from 3.00 to 4.00pm, and he'd decided we had to see him again so he stayed longer, from 5.00 to 6.00pm...tt's really kind k...like as though every1 would be willing to do tt...thanks to him, we got the show going...
Yt, 1st to tell me she'll miss mrs koh most. I thought I was the only one...
Last night was unforgettable. It was wonderful. i'll miss everyone. I'll miss this night where we stand at backstage getting ready to change for the next scene...i'll miss mr tang's jokes abt "smelly" hooi, abt "shorty" steff, abt "jerkish" me and shuang, abt "bimbo" frenz yx, zw, yh, sw, newspaper boys...I'll miss lotsa ppl frm the first half as well, eK, sitting beside me from term 3 til the end of the year...everything, they have gone into a different world - called yesterday.
If tomorrow never comes, I wish I could re-live the whole Year 2003...even if I had to take the exams again, I just want to be with 2/1 for a longer time...
-Broken dreams-
Wednesday, November 05, 2003
Friday over, last day of school gone.
Tuesday down, no more fund-raising.
Let me tell you what hurts.
Ms Tan GH is leaving, Mrs Lim CY is leaving, FT leaving...
Friday was the last time Mrs Koh would step out of this class that she has taught for 2 years, it's the last time this class that has been together for 2 years would, together, see her turn her back and exit our class...
2/1 splitting...
31st october, the last day of school, last day 2/1 would be together in a classroom.
Will we still meet again, would we still think the same way that we do now, would we still be able to enjoy the nights together counting stars and looking out at the "us" in the moon? Would we still embrace if we met along the corridors? If i wailed out in pain, would you still be there for me? Would there still be anyone who would understand how we feel deep inside? No...
4th november, last time we ever do fund-raising activities together, for choralnight.
Liane, yx, sh and i were lying in the quadrangle when it was over. Would we ever have the chance to do that ever again? No...there would no longer be this moon in the sky after 2 years, cuz the days pass like they can't wait for you...and this moon, will only be in our memories...cuz we'll no longer spend our nights like this...we may be looking at the sky, but no longer at the same time, on the same night, in the same place, at the same spot...
I'll miss the class, they appear in my dreams...and i know that's not enough, cuz in a dream i can't tell you how much i'd missed you, how much fun we've had in the days that we'd suffered scoldings, and the days we've smiled and laughed til we cried cuz we did something really great. And thursday, a day i await yet fear...the day we'll perform, yet the last day we'll ever perform together as 2/1...it's the day i'll go mad...i'll go crazy.
Next year, everything will be different. i no longer see mrs koh in my eng/lit class...
No more Shum and KC talking about tennis, no more dor and stella playing bball with me, no more shisi and hooi acting funny, no more nette, siqi, ht and steff being so straight forward...no more tammy, hanyun, cheryl, liang yan and yihang being so soft-spoken each day yet play cards so well, no more xizhi being so funny with her "shoebag hit head" thingy, no more limeng and yuanyi and yeechien and xiangjun to answer the questions lousy us don't understand during chinese, no more meisan and helen with their lame tricks...no more yeenseen shooting questions during history, no more hard-working ying shean and yolanda sitting quietly, no more wy quin's wailing, no more eK's funny stories and blur-ness, no more charmaine to answer all eng questns, no more sw being so nicely sensitive and hearty, no more liane to tell me about the stars and moon, no more shuang smsing with me, no more ys, yt, yx, zhang to sing with me...
-Broken dreams-
